HI MOM

Hi, still going strong!!!

2011-12-12T19:00:00.001-08:00

Yesterday was great, I flubbed up a bit in the morning but not really. I went on a date which doesn't happen enough for me to not eat at! So, I had a egg white/ red pepper/ spinach and the last thing which was the only thing not on my diet, BREAD!

With that said the rest of my day went great! No cheat, no hunger! This morning when I woke up I was .4 oz. heavier but that's not a big deal and I'm sure by tomorrow I will have lost it all again!

This morning I went back to my shake and still love the one with the beets and spinach!

Lunch was egg whites, spinach and peas.

Dinner was chicken.

I'm hungry but but I'm just going to go to sleep and make up for yesterday!!

I can't lie though, I do feel thinner and have more energy!!! I'm happy it's working out and ill keep going strong!

I'm so happy with my results this far!!!!

Day 5, 8 pm I'm starving!

2011-12-10T17:57:00.001-08:00

All day I did great!

I didn't get hungry and I drank all my drink!!! Which was fab! I added a beet and a handful of spinach! So yum!! Much better then the yogurt actually!

But, now it's almost 8 and I really craving anything. Sweet, sour, salty, dry, juicy, sugary, meat...seriously just about anything!!

I had a small dinner and just now I had to have a second course, this time I had a turkey burger and moorrreee veggies....

Right about now I'd give anything to dig into the donut holes at the house I'm babysitting at...they always have the best treats! But, with 6 pounds lost...I refuse to give up!

I will now try to babysit and meditate. Meditate the delicious thoughts out and still play with these adorable baby girls!

I am fit, I am happy, I am strong!

4th day of happiness

2011-12-09T22:41:00.001-08:00

Well day four is done and 5 pounds has been lost!!! I will post NO "Lost" posters because I'm ready to never see it again!

I am hungry today but not at all like yesterday!

I tried a new ingredient in my shake, GREEK YOGURT!! yum! It put a little zinnggg to the shake.

I'm so thankful for the support I have at home any moms amazing love for me and my success!

I can't believe I've gone this long without candy...seriously. I thought I'd be convulsing or something by this time but I'm allllll good! I also can't believe my salt cravings haven't taken over!

I'm doing good and plucking along :)

I am thin, I am beautiful, I am successful

Day one down, day two off to a great start!

2011-12-08T19:41:00.003-08:00

Right now I'm really loving this program!! Yesterday was confusing because I didn't have everything I need but today I do!!

I started yesterday with my new motivation and have continued it on today. I drank the drink this morning and I don't know if my body can handle liquids that early so I got a little qeezy. I had to eat two pieces of toast to settle my stomach but I've felt great otherwise!!! I guess I shed a pound but the real test will be tomorrow. Its nice being at work while I'm doing this because I know it will keep my mind off food but as of yesterday an today I'm feeling great!!!

Wish me good luck for after work.....

Day three what a breeze

2011-12-08T19:41:00.001-08:00

Just kidding!! Today was so hard for me!!! I did great though!!!! My shake didn't make me sick this morning thank heavens!!! My mom and I also went grocery shopping so I got a few more things to help with the variety!

I am down 2.5 pounds which is awesome that means only about 7.5 more to go! I am contemplating just doing a week and going with what I lose at the end of the week but we will see!!!

I honestly have no loss of energy or dizziness which is great!!! I actually feel like I have more energy an am more productive!! I'm so excited to get this extra weight offfffff!!!!

Wish me luck for tomorrow!

It's here!!

2011-12-05T20:08:00.001-08:00

7:17 pm my "pink method" arrived! Which is perfect! Why you ask?!? Tomorrow just so happens to be my day off!! So, tomorrow will be the day I start and phase one is called "the reset".

"The Rest" consists mostly of me eating veggies and protein and I'm projected to be on it for 14 days. The goal is to lose 5-10 pounds before starting the second phase which I'll explain on a later date.

I will be enjoying a protein smoothy with strawberries for breakfast, 4 oz. of lean protein and unlimited veggies for lunch, repeat for dinner and snack on veggies through out the day. This may be hard for me, I agree but like I said I have a different out look on this thing!! Im going to try and keep telling myself do I want to be healthy or do I want to keep eating? Do I want the food more then the weight loss!!?!? NO!!!

So day one tomorrow. Here go!

Merry Christmas

2011-12-01T17:19:00.001-08:00

I came home to a silly surprise after work today. My mom had bought me a Christmas tree and Justin Biebers new Christmas CD!!! Ahhhh love this!! Best day ever.

Wait till you see the tree too. Because seriously she got me Charlie Browns. Ya know the ugliest tree with just one big ornament!!

It was so perfect because I have been wanting a Christmas tree but I couldn't decide what I wanted or what size or if I even needed one because I'm never even downstairs but my mom has made my day with this!

Mommom

2011-11-30T08:58:00.001-08:00

Happy birthday baby girl! You are so amazing!! Your are my biggest inspiration!!! I love waiting on the right man with you till were skin and bones ;) I love your handwriting and opinion even when I don't agree. I love your silky sayings and your crazy thoughts!!! I think your the funniest lady around and you amaze me everyday!! You make me laugh and you make me cry. I love our conversations and your ability to speak your mind

Most of all I think it's hilarious that I'm writing this while your talking to me and I have no clue what your talking about...you picked Applebees to eat at, thank heavens you changed your mind from steak n' shake and were waiting for it to open because we both ready a half hour early...

Love you granny!!!

P.S. Your laugh is infectious

Pink Method

2011-11-29T22:10:00.001-08:00

I watched Dr. Phil last night on DVR and he had a show about women's health and the whole bases was on a new diet program called "P.I.N.K. Method". It sounds really fabulous too, everything about it is geared towards women and OUR struggle with weight loss.

Let's face it, everything is different when your a female! Our bodies just have a mind of their own and our minds have their own mind too!! You agree? I'm sure you do so you get what I'm saying when I say I need something that can work with my mind and body. I'm really excited because I'm going to give this program a try! I know, I'm just everyone else who's tried everything else but if you never try you'll never know! Also, you can never succeed if you don't use all your resources and give your heart to everything you try.

I feel like I've had success with everything I've tried before, i.e. Weight Watchers (17) , hcg (7), insanity(no weight loss but I could have kicked your sass if I wanted too..), and a few other things but I need to find my balance with everything. I'm so young and I can't keep wasting my body away. Yes it's true I do enjoy food, or I should say sugar, more then the average girl and I need to learn to control my habits!! NO I won't cut out candy, I'd smack the person who tells me to do so!!!! But!!! I do realize my candy cravings will only get worse and I'll only get bigger.

With that said here's to a new start, change for the better and a smaller pants size!
Wish me luck because you know I'll need it!!! I'll keep everyone updated just like I always do!!

I will be enjoying my last few days of normal eating habits before I get the system in the mail (takes about 4-9 days)

Don't fail me now Dr. Phil...

P.S. Dr. P said something interesting during this episode (when doesn't he?!?) to the bride on the show...," you say you love your boyfriend and that you want to marry him but every time you sit down to eat you chose your food over your dream." (completely made that sentence up but he said something along those lines!) it's so true for me too!!! I keep choosing candy/unhealthy foods over my dream of being fit, healthy and skinny!!! WTF ME! What's your deal?!? Well note to self who wants to give up,"nothing taste as good as skinny feels"

Here's to something new

2011-09-13T10:00:00.001-07:00

Im trying this blog thing again, I hope it will e better this time because now I'm blogging on my phone! Which means lots of pictures. Actually it will be mostly pictures, which I'm really excited about!

New BLOG!?!

2010-11-14T21:19:00.000-08:00

I just made a new blog tonight to help inspire people to play with make up!

Glitter & GLAM
...TA DA

HELLO...hello..ANYONE OUT THERE...out there...

2010-11-12T23:36:00.000-08:00

Hi. I'm here. Alive. Living in IL. In my parents basement. Working at Sephora. Saving money.

*Handro brought me home. he couldnt stay long. Miss him BIG time.

*My sister loves that Brin makes faces just like her AUNTIE!

*I'm getting really great with my makeup skills at home. :)

*The Girls and I have started a "book club"

*We looove to go out together! and Drive safe!

Gettin it done.

2010-05-26T20:04:00.000-07:00

So much is going on right now!!

As we speak people are getting ready to watch the greatest sequel in history, SATC. Funny to think not to long ago I was home staying up late to see the first on grand opening. LOVED that movie. I cant wait to see SATC 2!! yikes!

August brings some specials times for my family. Jess (my sister in law) will be having our 2nd nephew!! YIPPY!!! and tttthheeen the GRAY GIRLS will be joining her to to meet our lil guy in AZ. Its an exciting time because I'll get to see brinners again!! I love her sooo much and Ill get to play with Brady boy my little lover and most excitingly snuggle with little brother!!

Later that month I will hopefully be moving home. If all goes well I will be moving home and transferring to the Sephora that is being built in Fairview Heights!! It opens in September!! exciting!!!

Sunday I gave a talk in church! It went so good. Jordans parents come over to listen to my talk :) It was so nice of them to come so Jord and I made them dinner. It was so fun, did I mention Jordan is my ONLY roommate now...haha love it!

Shes perfect!

2010-04-16T18:07:00.001-07:00

Brinley Ann Mortensen. 19in. 8lbs 1oz. darkheaded? love her so much!

Cant wait to meet you my little Chunky Monkey

So happy!

2010-04-13T23:04:00.001-07:00

Just some good things going on in my life right now.

Good life. Brinley comes on friday. I'm having another nephew in september! and work is wonderful!

Good times :)

Cats outa the bag!

2010-03-02T19:10:00.000-08:00

So, I have been keeping my hair and my weight a secret for awhile because I wanted to surpise my mom and sisiter. While the hair thing went fabulously the weight has gone down but its not what I wanted! haha....but I'm really proud of myself! If you couldnt tell in my pictures I got my hair done and I looove it! Its so much better for me! and as for my weight....I'm down 3.2

I have been doing weight watchers with my old manager/co worker. We are so great! I've lost .2 more then here :) haha I love loseing weight and I feel so much better!! yay :)

Bad day? post some pictures!

2010-02-27T21:04:00.000-08:00

I just got done with one of the worst days ever. the one where you smile and then BAM someone just spits on you! and your like what the...but you think whatever that was weird and then someone kicks you and tries to steal your dress and you think crazy old man give me my stuff and you tell yourself o it can only get better...and it get worse and then WORSE and then you get thrown under a bus and that bus drives over you 3 maybe even 4 times and just when you think its over your left feeling like the biggest peice of crap and you say our sorrys b.c you are just that, sorry. your humbled by the fact everything happens for a reason. its almost april and when that sunny month comes I wont even neeeeed 2 jobs. but I will look for another b.c lets get real I cant stay in one place for to long. right? oooo since I made you listen to my confusing rant Ill post some supper cute pictures of the last couple weeks...days? heck I dont know!..........cant move the pictures down...hahaha sorry whoops!

Anyone out there?!

2010-01-12T19:47:00.001-08:00

All is well Here in utah,! I've got a few updates. Nothing much though...SORRY! :)

...one of my coworkers found my blog so I thought I should put a new post so she dosnt think I'm to lame!!!

.....more pictures later and maybe an acutally update too?!

been havin a blast!

2009-11-23T23:03:00.000-08:00

i just have so many pictures....tonight we went Ice Skating for FHE. IT was amazing. the other pictures are from a bonfire and Halloween. I'll decipher.

Ice Skating:My fiance Chris. O were in love.

Ice Skating: My roommie sammy and I.

Ice Skating: My cute friend Sam.

Ice Skating: Sam doing the Stanky leg..yep.

Bonfire: My good Friends! Brandon, Chris, Grant

Ice Skating: The Lovely Ladies of 102. O and Christian.

Ice Skating: Me Kara..and Christan again.

Ice Skating: My home Teachers...we had a hard time.

Ice Skating: As you can see again...

Ice Skating: Last attempted and Brandon.

Bonfire:Kara and meee

Ice Skating: Me and Sammy again :)

Ice Skating: Can you feel the love? Chris and me.

After the Bonfire: Chris and I decided we'd get married.

Ice Skating: They kept dancing. I love them!

Bonfire:Me and Kara. It was chiiiillly to say the least!

Halloween:Vamp,Hippie,Boo Peep, Hannah Montana

Ice Skating: Adam my FB BFF.

Halloween: Hannah and a basketball playa.

Halloween: me AKA Hannah MONTANA!

WhataWedding!

2009-11-06T11:58:00.000-08:00

My friends sister got married last spring and I think it was the prettiest wedding ever...I've just been thinking about it alot :)

BIG TEST!

2009-10-31T00:04:00.000-07:00

I took my test on monday! PASSED!

yay new pictures!

2009-10-21T23:23:00.000-07:00

Last night we want to my fabulous friend Emily's pumpkin carving party! She is so much fun and her apartment was so adorable! I wish I lived with her! she knows that funniest people!! it was blast and my new roomie Kelsey and I made the cutest jack ever!

Lost.

2009-10-19T23:45:00.000-07:00

I'm feeling a little lost right now. Seriously contemplating moving back home. I love everything about my life right now, so why is it so hard? Why am I in Utah? I have no reason. I feel like the biggest waste of time right now. But, I just passed my written test and I'm about to start a really great new job. Yet, something is pulling me back to home. Is it selfish of me to live out here? I'm not going to school anymore and I am not here for anyone. I am not self sufficient, though I really wish I was. Maybe a change is in the near future.

pray, all I can do is pray.

Dear Mommy,

2009-10-16T21:15:00.000-07:00

Will you ever know how much you help me? Will you ever understand how sorry I am for being the biggest brat ever. Will you ever know just how much I love you? Will I ever be able to repay you for all the blessings you've given me? Will I have be able to say thank you enough for helping me? Will you ever know how much I love you, just as much as I love my daddy? Will you ever know how much I appreciate the phone calls? Will you ever see how grateful I am to look like you? Will you ever know how proud I am to be half Gordy? Will you ever know how thankful I am you raised me in the church? Will you ever know how happy I am that YOU got baptised? Will you ever know how thankful I am that we say "I love you" at the end of our conversations no matter how cranky I am? Will you ever know just how much I want to be like you when I'm a mom? Will you ever know how thankful I am that you made me workout? Will you ever know how grateful I am for all the extras you give me? Will you ever know how happy I am when I get your packages in the mail? Will you ever understand just how much I NEVER want to live away from you again? Will you ever know how much I love your mom? Will you ever know how happy I am that I am a re rejoyce? Will you ever know how thankful I am that I am your mothers granddaughter therefor givin the strength to do ANYTHING?

Mommy I am so glad your mine.

Crocodile tears...

2009-10-07T13:31:00.000-07:00

I am sitting here crying, crying like I haven't done in a really long time. I have been hearing storeys about dads lately that have just been taring my heart apart....I'm sorry to share them with you but I just need to get them out there and ask all of you to pray for them...

First story,
This Thursday we have enrichment so I went around to ask girls to bring treats. One girl told me she wouldn't be there on Thursday and then proceed to tell me why...Her father had just suffered a heart attack and it was so bad that they couldn't help him in Wyoming so he was brought to Salt Lake. Well Being as I am in Relief Society now my Prisent and I who was with me at the time decided we were going to take her dinner to take to her mom. Well, today I got a call my Jamie the president and she explained to me a little more about what was going on...things had changed. There was some sort of complication and they could no longer do the surgery on Thursday...they sent her father back to Wyoming. They rescheduled the surgery for next Thursday but, they also do not expect him to live that long... I can not even imagine being giving an expiration date on my dad. I can not imagine telling someone that I had been told my daddy wouldn't make it... The girl who's father it is said that she feels comfort and knows that it is the lords plan..but I, I feel horrible. I just love my daddy and couldn't...I'm not finishing that sentence. Please pray for her.

2nd Story,
Last night while driving to instatue we were talking about our RP. Well, I told my friends how mine was in my dads "special things" drawer and when I went to look for it I got caught up in post cards and letters my daddy's dad had sent to him...My dad lost his dad when he was really young. I think about 15. Reading those letters broke my heart. He would send 10 dollars so my dad could have his brother drive him up to see him, he'd make him have his brother promise to take him... It made me so sad that my dad couldn't just call up his daddy when ever he wanted...he had to wait for letters. I'm so glad that I can be with my family forever and one day Ill get to meet my dads dad.

3rd story,
My poor sweet little Brady and Jessica. I read my sister inlaws blog this morning and CRIED! Aaron is away just at training but as she points out soon enough he'll be back in Afghanistan. She talks about how Brady misses his daddy, my brother, and how when he is sad and her too they can just give him and call...for now. I love Jessica and Brady so much and I don't know how Jessica does it! Sending her man off all the time! She is such a strong wife and mother. I only hope I can be like her when I am married. Although I hope my husband doesn't have to leave all the time. Thank you Jess for putting up with my brother love for his country.

4th story,
On yahoo, my fav. place to get info, I read about this little 4 year old girl who didn't want to let go of her daddy. I hope I can tell the story as well as yahoo did... So, The little 4 year old girl was seeing her father off to Iraq with the rest of her family but she really really didn't want him to go...she couldn't let him go. She stood by him as him and his fellow Army men lined up. No one had the heart to move her or even ask her to move. So, they left her there with her father...her mom caught the picture...it broke my heart. She was later interviewed and said that she still really misses her daddy....break. my. heart. again. Pray for her and her family.

...How could that picture not break your heart? I love my dad so much...and I just played a little game of phone tag with him...and am waiting for his 2nd call back...please be swift father.

p.s you can click on the links to read the whole storys but get a tissue ready. you WILL cry.

Conference '09

2009-10-04T20:23:00.000-07:00

CLICK HERE!

...Why you ask? Well Let me tell you a little something. Today I got to go to the 179 semi-annual General Conference for the Church of Jesus Christ of latter-day saints. The Click here is the talks. I HIGHLY recomend you watch this. It will change your life. I highly recomend Elder Hollands talk, it was LEGIT. The guy did not beat around the bush. My gosh I just loved this weekend. I feel so blessed to get revelation in these days. I am so blessed to belong to a church that only exsists to make me a better person.

Cougar for a Second time!

2009-10-03T09:59:00.000-07:00

Really do I need to say more? my friends rock! they get me into all the games!

2nd job!

2009-10-01T11:37:00.000-07:00

I am so excited! on the 13th I take my state board test and after that I will be starting at a salon/spa called pure beauty! I am so excited!! I really needed this job and I have been so blessed by getting it. I dont know why they liked me so much but they did and called me last week. We had an interview and I got the call today! I'm so so so excited!

Waken' UP!

2009-09-30T11:36:00.000-07:00

The other day I got to spend some good ole' time witmy my gurl LISA! I love her! She is from the midwest like myself. She was here visiting for our friend lisas wedding! see post below. You might remember 2 summers ago I went wakeboarding but I could not get up. Well I DID THIS TIME! It was such a blast! I deff. need a boat.

Blondes have more fun!

2009-09-27T18:59:00.000-07:00

Rock Band at Shawn/Sam/Brandon's/Aaron's/Ben's/Adams

Sunday dinner at Kara's

Krista's bachelorette party!

Kristas wedding!

This date in History...

2009-09-21T09:08:00.000-07:00

Years to come I will remember this date in history. Today SOMEONE messaged me on facebook! seems like nothing to you, but to me this was over 2 years in the making. No I was very cool but I said keep in touch so HOPEFULLY they will! This sounds so dumb but it just brought my day from a 3 to a 10! and its only 10 a.m.

FOOTBALL TIME!

2009-09-20T01:19:00.000-07:00

...We lost. No big deal! I did learn something though.

Your first BYU game is like your first Kiss, at first your so excited and think its going great! Then you realise wow this isn't a winner. But, you do not worry because there will be more and they can only get better!

Love being back!

2009-09-19T23:45:00.000-07:00

My Ward went to our bishops cabin Friday night! It was so much fun. There was about 20 people from our ward there! I was so glad that I got to go. It was a giant sleepover. What was even better was there was no ronch stuff. It was very spiritual. I loved it so very much. We played capture the flag and hide n' seek, I bit it walking up the mountain in blackness of the night! I ate to many smores, sister peck made the best dinner and I'm pretty sure I can never eat again! This ward is so funny all we do is eat!

The bishop and his lovely wife kept up with us also. A small group of us had a discussion for over an hour...maybe 2, he and his wife staid the whole time to try and help us. I would say they went to bed around 4....and got up and made breakfast for everyone....amazing! We were all asleep by 5 and most were up at 9 not me though, I got up at 10:30 barely...and was soon rush out the door. I had so much fun! I cant wait to go back!

Pep Rally!

2009-09-18T09:27:00.000-07:00

Last night my roommate Samantha and I got to have quit the night! We went to the BYU Vollyball game and then Pep Rally for the game we are going to be going crazy at on saturday! I'm so pumped! I promise you there will be pictures!! YAYAYA so at the pep rallly I told Samantha how I have the most comphy shoes and then showed her and welp I had 2 different shoes on! not only different colors but different styles! all night...all night I had these shoes on....never knew! hahahaha

BYU BYU BYU

This is same with the Y in the background.

This is the Cheer and Dance team pumpin the crowd up!

Times this by thousands and you got saturday!

This is Samantha Me and Kara her, they are sisters! I love sisters almost as much as I love brothers!

HERE the TEAM! WOOT WOOT!

..they were single guys on the left married on the right...hahaaha

Words from a prophet

2009-09-16T09:36:00.001-07:00

Yesterday My roommate and I got to go to a BYU devotional. Guess who was speaking? President Thomas S. Monson. It was awesome. The guy sure can speak! He told stories of the prophets be for him. The ones that served while he was alive. He had us laughing, crying and thinking what the heck?! On a serious note the spirit was so strong there. It was amazing to me that people got there at 7 in the morning just to get good seats. I was there an hour and a half be for it started, managed to get good seats but not like what I thought I was going to have. By 10 a.m. the right side of the Marriott was completely full. They opened up the other side and by the time it started there wasn't an empty seat in the house! It was almost like a concert, cameras flashing, people talking and folks asking everyone if "these seats were taken?". I loved it truly I did, to me it seemed like from his storied that he has been on the path to being the prophet his whole life. As though every decision he made led him closer and closer. It is amazing to, he is so in tune so inspiring. I hope to make it a point to see him at least once a year!

on another note, work, I like it, its quick but, I never want to see another pair of skinny jeans or plaid shirts the rest of my life! I think my eyes are going crazy.

Just on my mind.

2009-09-14T14:48:00.000-07:00

I have been thinking lately about how I need to keep my life balanced. For me that means getting along with everyone, reading my scriptures, saying my prayers and eating healthy....Its always hard with all those things in a new environment. I'm glad to say that I see a balance balancing out. I so glad to feel this familiar feeling. I started my new job today which means getting out of the house which mean not spending to much time with one person which means my prayers are longer which means I read my Scriptures which helped me get a job so I can buy legit grocery's.

I love balance. I love familiarity. I love peace.

As of right now I'm great! better then great I feel peaceful.

I love being out in Utah, it gives me a sense of responsibility, hope for the future and excitement.

I just thought this picture was funny. I am Erica Fierce.

p.s. arnt my friends adorable!

2:30 A.M

2009-09-13T01:33:00.000-07:00

...This picture is from the last weekend. how cute right!

Well, I just got done having an inpromto party with the gals. It was a blast! as is everything with make up for me! check out these pics yo.

We began the night with no plans....but that changed, real quick.

Crazy huh! we all have different colors. tiph-blue, me-yellow, sammi-purple, kara-green. I had so much fun! I love love love playing with makeup!

enjoy.

2009-09-09T11:17:00.000-07:00

I sit here in my messy apartment pondering the things I enjoy most in life. I decided I show them all to the world. Why? Because when thing are going good, there going real good.

I think A list would go best with my collage.

mostly I just really enjoy my family. Hundred percent. They make my life possible. As the youngest I wreak all the benefits and I love every minute of it. I love watching my brother and sister be married and happy, Aaron and Jessica are raising the cutest little boy ever and Lauren and mike make me sick there so cute with each other! I love chad too, I love that chad is where I'm at in life and we can bounce ideas off each other and he unlike everyone else can completely understand where I'm coming from.
My Mommom, aka Grandma, is amazing. I wrote and very detailed and revealing paper on her when I was in the 6th grade. This past summer my sister and I found the paper. I was so embarrassed at all the things that I wrote! none were bad just very personal. But, My mommom was not embarrassed by it one bit, that beautiful young lady tears up every time she hears or reads it. She is so proud of the life she has lived and wouldn't take back one minute of her. She inspires me to be the best person I can be. Plus, were both waiting on the perfect man. :)
Little kids. I love them. They are so hard and tiring, yet completely and utterly worth the blood, sweat and tears. I baby sat the most precious little girl over the summer. Literally the easiest baby/PERSON I have ever met! She didn't cry she went right to sleep for naps and shed eat all her food without a mess. I'm talking sent from heaven. I love that little girl so much! even though she is not my direct relative I know that she is my sister and I was so lucky to be able to watcher her. Then there is Abby. I cant even wrap my head around how much I love her. My mom has been watching her since...well...befor she was born! The lovely May family moved into are neighborhood about 5 years ago and all our lives changed for the better. Abby has brought this spunky little feeling into our home. I'm pretty sure she is helping keep my mom looking so young and hot! She is the sassy est little girl Alive. I love her and this summer she decided she loved me back. I about melted, no I'm pretty sure I melted.
Brady, he more then deserves his own bulletin. My nephew my little energetic ball of spaz. I never knew that you could feel for someone what I do for him. It is not like "falling in love" or even "having to love", Its more of just this feeling of happiness. Every picture, every video, every story and everything about him makes me smile the biggest smile.
Missionary's. They made my mom so happy when all her chicks flew the nest. I really enjoy them because without them I wouldn't be here, well here as in Utah. Forsure my family would not be who and what we are today without missionary's. Plus, I've made some good friends from missionaries. Esp. the old ones. I love them and love when they find me on facebook. :)
My parents. They take good care of there littlest girl. I never have to go without. I may not always HAVE but I never have not. I love them so much. They let me live my crazy dreams which is scary for them because I being the youngest have the craziest Ideas. I'm not married I'm not at byu and I don't want to stay in the ville so they are little confused with the new changes and all But I love them so much for letting me be me. I stay outside the box and that is okay with them because they trust me. Even though I've messed up and heck we all know I have they still let me be me!!! YAY for them! :)
My best friend, She is amazing. She listens to all my story's. Good and bad, happy and sad and annoying and rad! She is aly and she is spectacular! We stay in really good contact. We know everything thing about each other and I'm so glad one day my kids will call her Aunt Aly! Shes so funny and random! We have these "best friend' posters in her room, she is loves her best friends! She even has a little picture frame just for me...and Grover! shes so funny!! forsure best friends forrrrsure!!
I'm really thankful for my sister. But, we all know that! I'd be nothing without her! She and I love each other and we have a bond no one can break.

forever 21

2009-09-08T15:17:00.001-07:00

got a job.
Interview went fablous!
Wasnt even supposed to be there!

Prayers for Erica. Please!

2009-09-05T16:46:00.000-07:00

Just signed up for my written exam. I'm really nervous. Keep me in your prayers please!! YAY

Problem overload

2009-09-02T22:29:00.000-07:00

I wrote a whole post and just deleted it. I can simplify everything into two words.

Boy suck.

No one will ever change my mind. I feel bad for the "by the grace of god" guy, if I ever meet him. There is no hope. I dont want hope I want revenge. I do not trust boys, They are sweet talking fools. And half of them arent even sweet talking. stupid stupid boys.

2009-08-31T19:56:00.000-07:00

I need a Job. Now.
I need new shoes. Now.
I need money for payments. Now.
I need money to shop till I drop. Now.
I need a job so I can buy shoes pay rent and shop.Now.

HELP

newwwws

2009-08-23T22:02:00.000-07:00

I'm here in Utah. My sister in law said that since I'm back in Utah I have to start updating about my fun life here in Utah. But, Nothings very fun right now. I am in my new apt. but no electricy and I my camra is dead....so no pictures...and its dirty...only tiph and I are there right now till tuesday. I cant concentrate because I'm with my friends but here is my update! I'm positive great things are going to happen. :)

Caution:Road construction ahead

2009-08-05T13:38:00.000-07:00

Some exciting things are going on in my life right now.

Tomorrow I head back out to good ole Utah. I cant believe summer is over!

Someone Pinch me now!

Last night we got back from VACA! It was wonderful.

"Picnik Show"

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2009-07-28T10:55:00.000-07:00

I guess all I have to say is my birthday wasn't so so bad at all! actually It was amazing! where to begin..

So, Sunday I was feeling so down and out. But, Then I got a happy birthday wish from a boy I was in love with my sophomore year and as my sister soon reminded me I am still the same little 16 year old girl. I often wonder to myself when will I grow up? What will I be like when I'm not like me. I can even imagine being mature enough to be called a grown up. I know that day is in the near future but I don't think my 16 year old self will ever be gone forever. Which I don't mind at all. Sunday night some friends came over. I was really glad someone changed their mind and came...it meant a loooot! My friend Chris even brought over his little sisters! They are soooo cute and well as the youngest kid in the family I really relate to little kids! hahahaha They always have me tuck them in when I'm at there house around bed time. Its one of my favorite things to do. They are so adorable!

Yesterday we had some bad news and I though my day might even be ruined. But, My family came through as they always do and took me to a cardinals game!! It was sooooo much fun and I was with my favorite people ever. My sister takes such good care of me! did I mention she even decorated the house for me when I came home from church! What a good big sis!! I had a blast at the game and I love just being with my friends. So, What I can learn from this is birthdays a great and they will always be great as long as I'm with the ones I love. Age is just a number, I'm only as old as I let myself be. Good think I wont let myself get that old!!!

So old,

2009-07-26T07:59:00.000-07:00

For some reason according to my birth certificate I'm supposed to be 20 years old. I think it must be wrong because I still look and feel 15! HAHA It should be a really chill day, parents are out of town so no special dinner...no birthday cake...and no presents to open. I am officially a grown up. Tomorrow we are going to a cardinals game! YAY! I cant wait!

2009-07-22T17:32:00.000-07:00

Just want you all to know that I love this little girl! She is so darn cute! and on her birthday she loved me too! That was a wonderful day! As you can see she is HUGGING ME! this doesn't happen to offend. Don't you just love little girls! There made of sugar spice and everything nice!

2009-07-13T22:08:00.000-07:00

I've bascially been MIA for a while now... I know I'm sorrry!! alot has been going on. here is my life in pictures.

(Chris and MY blanket. :) so silly!)

(I went for two days to girls camp and it was wonderful! I got to go and just camp and be with my friends. I girls camp and I would go every year if I could...and I have so far! I hope I get to the camp leader one day! Seriously that would be the camp to die for! PROMISE!)

(Charity and myself after our water balloon fight)

(Me, Charity, Nibs, DG)

(I made the first years get up and dance with their fruit in their mouths!)

(Me, Nibs, DG)

(Charity and my bossy self <3)

(The Church Besties)

(I also went to the Fray concert! Sooo much fun!!)

(Church boys. Bryan, Me, Josh, Chris.)

(My Bestie!)

(yep)

(Bryan so cute!)

(We went to Joseph Smiths memorial, so sad!)

(so peiceful)

(On our way in the Carmedic Van!)

(SIX FLAGS!)

(The boss. I couldnt ride I had a bag with me)

(Chris, Me, Whitley, Chad)

(I love this but Chris hates it. Wasnt aloud on FB so its on the blog)

(20 dollar pizza. nice)

(Whitley and myself, are you freaky? yep)

...That is it! I pretty darn happy right now! Very very happy to be home for the summer. Everything is great! I am so blessed! All the new adventures have been amazing. I cant wait to go back out to Utah! I'm sooooo happy!

Sweet!

2009-06-28T22:42:00.001-07:00

Thriller
highly funny people. please watch, you will I promise you enjoy this.

Long live the KING!

What a day!

2009-06-26T21:38:00.001-07:00

I cant say that this was the best day of my life. But, It has been a wonderful day!!!

1.) Found the best spot in my bed. It was so comfy so very perfect.
2.) Babysat baby girl and she was like always wonderful!
3.) Bought some fake eyelashes.
4.) spoke to peeps about waxing.
5.) Gave a great makeup/skin care demo.
6.) Not only did I get to wax Sister Porters eyebrows, Got to eat some of her yummy food! yum.
7.) Learned that PEOPLE actually DO read my blog! They will be happier from here on!
8.) I've been around lots of lovely people today!
9.) Watched MJ music videos all day. Amazing.
10.) Saw transformers, got a surprise and a hug. Don't laugh Lauren, I'm still very excited! :)
11.) Getting home to a mommie and daddy I love so much. They are off the chain.
12.) Watched a little Grease two with my dad and some of those creepy shoes he loves too.
13.) About to go read my Scriptures and have my nightly talk with my father.
14.) Sleep away while dreaming of the fun I'll have tomorrow in Navoo.

...This day was great. I am so blessed. So very blessed.

Tomorrow marks a sad anniversary. Joseph Smith was martyred in Navoo 165 years ago tomorrow. The 27th day of June, 1844. My sister, brotherinlaw, and a few friends will head up to Navoo this day to remember a great prophet. I love that place, Navoo is just filled with great things, though we are there in memory of the prophet we will still be having fun. I cant wait to eat some ginger bread yum!

2009-06-25T22:12:00.000-07:00

Tonight I did my best friends makeup. Just for fun. I got some eyebrow stuff and wanted to test it out. A little dark for her eyebrows or maybe its just different I don't know. I think she looks beautiful but, maybe I'm a bit bias! haha

Just some things on my mind.

2009-06-24T23:15:00.000-07:00

First off, I'm not sure ho many of you know but, I am a makeup artist. I Have been offered a job in Utah at the school I attended, I will be teaching girls the ways of the makeup. I am nervous and really realllllly excited about this opportunity and as the time gets closer I get even more excited! It is a program that my teacher and I came up with. Basically she gave me guidelines to follow and I build the rest. I have the power points finished and I'm working on getting a portfolio together. two questions arise from this.

1.) What are some things you'd like to know more about make up? I love to ask question and even more so I love when people as me questions. So, If you think of a question ASK ME! anytime anywhere. If I cant tell you then, I'll figure it out and let you know. Plus, this lets me know what people are thinking, people like the students I will be teaching. tryin to plan ahead.

2.)I am in need of a photographer. I am in the process of putting a portfolio together and I need someone to take shots for me. I don't have allot of money...so, I cant pay a legit person in a studio or anything but I also know that life's not free. Holla at me if you know anyone ;)

Another thing, on Friday I am giving a little one on one class to a lady about makeup and skin care. I'm so pumped! It gave me a really great Idea. Makeup Consultant. I don't know how it'd go right now But, I think that that is a good little side line job. What the deal is, I will give her some tips and tricks with what I have in my bag. But, as we all know, no two women have the same makeup bag. She will also bring hers and what well do is play with her makeup too. Allot of lady's, my self included, buy makeup they loved seeing on others or just at make up counters, not aware of what it is or if it takes different technique's to put on. We get home try it out and we think,"what did I just buy?!" Well, I've come to realize that all makeup is differed and takes different ways to be applicated. I'd love to help people know all the little gems they have in there makeup bag, those treasures you bought and never used are just as great as what you use everyday! All you need is a little help to open you eyes and it would totally save MONEY!! HOOLLAA!! haha.

Yay for makeup is all I can say, I love it so very much. I actually get butterfly's thinking about makeup? I just looovessss it!

...I did my girls makeup for them at prom. I've been doing makeup for these things for years! I love them for always letting me do it! Best friends rock. These are for sure my greatest clients! you can click on them to see them bigger. let me know what you think!

These are the days I live for.

2009-06-22T10:13:00.001-07:00

By the clear beautiful pool with lots of familys around. Along with my brother and sister and brother in law and mike holllllaaa

...

2009-06-17T18:47:00.001-07:00

I just dont want to look back and think, I should have tried that.

Breast Cancer Awarness

2009-06-12T10:57:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow is the Susan G. Komen Breast Cancer 5k. My Mommom(grandma) had Breast cancer, tomorrow we walk for her. Tomorrow we walk for all those who fought the fight for their life and I couldn't be more proud of my Grandma. 10 years she has been surviving strong. For the fight she put up I couldn't be more grateful. I wrote a paper on her once. It was my hero's paper. I got to hold an Olympic torch because of her and her struggles. She is probably the strongest person I know. She couldn't come to Illinois to walk with us but She was be their in our hearts. Her spirt will be with us. Side by side my sister my mother and my self will be walking for a cure. walking for hope. walking with pride.

Mommom I love you and I thank you for surviving STRONG! here's to the next 10 years!

Have I mentioned I'm stoked!

Forget me nots.

2009-06-09T21:44:00.000-07:00

Sunday was a great day, JESSICA AND BRADY came back for another visit before they had to leave us and go back to Arizona. Jessica's little sister had her second beautiful baby daughter not to long ago and Jessica being the great big sis that she is came to help her sister and see the new bundle of joy! In true Jessica nature she came to see us too! She is like this unbelievable sister-in-law that always has and always will treat us fair! That might not make since so let me explain. I've never though "o, my nephew is in town but Aaron's not with him so we wont really see him", Its more like' "JESSICA AND BRADY ARE COMING!!!!!" She is so great to us Grays and I know we are all very very thankful for her and her ability to love us and even more so become one of us....We are, a different type of family. An amazing family to say the least, if I may say so myself.

~First stop was the City Museum. St. Louis is a great city to leave near. Plenty of fun things to do. Half of my family had never been here before. How? I have no clue! I have some AWESOME childhood memories here. Where was my family? Brady was a Little scared when we first got there. But, he quickly got over those fears and before we knew it he was almost 4 storeys in the air, climbing though an old airplane into a tower fit for a true princess. I think What helped was the ball pit. Once inside that pit he lost fear and became a wild man! Thanks to his uncle chad who showed him this place really was fun! Chad is some sort of a monkey, much like his older brother! Only sad part, we didn't get to go explore the caves and anyone who's anyone knows THE CAVES ARE INCREDIBLE!

This is both of the airplanes. zoomed in all the way :)

yes, you can walk up a firetruck crain to get to some spots. Ill post more pictures of this too later....

We Journeyd to Grants Farm today...that is another story. But, here are some funny pictures.

Somehow is always ends up like this....

...Seriously Jessica, we love you!

2009-06-07T21:12:00.001-07:00

I got a twitter page while in utah awhile ago. only updated 5 times. If you have one let me know! They are pointless and add to ones self obbsession but alas I think they are quite interesting! gatta love those fads :)

Eta's Tweets

what do you think about the cheese name?! loves it!

I know I'm about to be twenty...

2009-06-01T20:58:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow the Sims 3 come out. Why am I so addicted to these games I HAVE NO CLUE! I have gotten them all. I love them really, one of my best friends, Sarah and I love this game so much. Each time a game is added we freak out and talk about how excited both of us are and how we are going to play it so much!

Tonight my sister and I will be driving 20 min. to a 24 hour walmart to get the game. I have asked her to stay up with me and drive the drive to get the game that rules the world! I couldn't believe she said she would! She loves building houses on it so shes kinda excited too I think! I am so excited!!! only 40 min. till i can leave!

I cant lie, I highly enjoyed The Sims 2. It was everything I thought it would be and more! First off, I got to have my own children! They somewhat would look like me and my husband too and even act like us....just a little! I Loved the new building tools and decorations! I loved sending my Sims off in their brand new car to school, work, the mall and more! NOTHING was better then when I GOT to adopt animals! dogs, cats, birds, you name it! amazing right! Then came the seasons! Winter, Spring, Summer and Fall! Forreals people. They even could go to college now! man, The Sims 2 rocked the boat. I Know the Sims 3 will own the Sims 2 though! I even made my father buy an expensive piece to add to our computer so that I could play this game!

Here is where it all began. I can actually tell you where I played the Sims for the first time. I was at my brothers baseball game, it just so happen that the coach had the baseball field in his back yard. He also had a daughter a year younger then myself. She is the one who introduced me to the game I just cant let go. We sat up in her computer room while the boys and our family's played and watched some good ole' American baseball. I had to have it but alas, our very old apple could not respond to the the Sims. That totally beats the having to add a piece to the computer to play the game....here we needed well, a whole new computer. Then my best friend Sarah got the game! JEALOUSLY over took my life. We loved to make houses and live together. This is when I knew we'd be buds for a long long long time. (she is the one that is so excited about the Sims3 with me too!!!) Our friend laura had the game too, Sarah and I would go play with Laura sepratly and when we'd get on the Sims we'd try and steal eachothers boyfriend! haha love her! Finlay we got a computer!!! After many failed attempts my begging paid off and my parents bought me the Sims! It was amazing!!!!

....So tonight, I remember the good friends the Sims has helped me to have. The memories I hold with the Sims I will have forever. Cheese ball, I know. I cant help myself. I love the Sims! rock on Simers

LET THERE BE SIMS

Golds Gym

2009-05-20T12:09:00.001-07:00

You are the scum of the earth. I hate you and the hold you have on me and my bank account. I wish you would go bankrupt and die. I truly do. I can work out outside in the beautiful midwest breeze. I WISH I NEVER would have met you. You LIED AND YOU SUCK! AND I HATE YOU GOLDS GYM!

Cupcake anyone?

2009-05-15T06:26:00.000-07:00

Cuppy cake...kid...

Cupcake loves diet cook

2009-05-10T20:09:00.000-07:00

My Blog needs a jolt of life. Yet I have none to give.

The homeless...

2009-04-25T07:16:00.000-07:00

Ever see someone laying on the side of the street and think,"man, It would realy suck to be them." I know I have...and now I know IT DOES! okay, so maybe I'm not that homeles...well at all. Needless to say I am without home. A.K.A making me of the homless pool. I moved out of my apartment today...actually last night. I had to turn in my keys and what not this morning. Sad! I no longer live in apartment 203, not ganna lie, I'm pretty sad. I have grown up and changed so much in those four walls. I KNOW I'm still no grown up. but, I sure have grown up, alot. I think I will take a minute to tell you some funny storys. I dont get along with all my roommates right now...well when have I actually. NOT MY FAULT! one of my roommates liturally went crazy. died her hair black and all! but, she and I were friends once apon a time...

Kayla, My first friend in Utah. Gets married in May. We were both newbies. Sat in the back of church hopeing cute boy would welcome us to the ward...only to find the two of us glued together. she came over that day and ate lunch with me...and dinner too. We stayd pretty close...then we became friends with our roommates. Still love the girl and wish her the best of luck! Everytime I see her I think MY FIRST UTAH friend!...p.s. she took me on a really akward date with her once...without me knowing...

Rachel, My first roommate...I met her and she well made me nervous. Loved the girl, She is so funny. We dont really have any funny stories just...I got really sad one night and made her hug me for like an hour just standing there...We also all piled into the back of a truck together to get a christmas tree.

Bri, We got really close. One time we were house hunting and we got stuck in the SNOW! we had to get out and PUSH! luckily this little boy came out with a shuvel. I miss sonic theses days. to bad shes gone crazy.

Tiph, We got off on a great start that turned into a bad time that turned into goffball ness that turned into I wont stop hanging out with your sister and brother which turned into room with me next year! I have had so many ups and downs with this girl. See you next year little lady!

Garret, This guys just kept me sane. He helped me to understand the sisters better. His sisters. He sings celine dion with me, went to prom with me, and let me cry on his sholder when I got yelled at by his big sis. He lets me drive his car. Thats all I have to say.

KRISTA!, She is crazy and I love her! I have so much fun with her and lisa. They are so silly and love to eat candy with me. Not just candy, I dont want to fool you. We eat...everywhere, anytime. But dont get confused we worked it off too! got up at 5 a.m for cycling...swam...went on crazy diets, tryingto get sexy for prom! haha Shes keeping my boxs and helped me become a famous rap star. We will forever be friends.

Lisa, this is is amazing. She is so funny and laughs at everything. She is the mother to two adorable boys who dont like me or anyone else! haha. She always knew how to work it shrink it and make it fly! Sitting in the back row with her and krista was the best move I've made lately!

Pres, I have gone to school with this girl since day one. I will miss her alot. We didnt really mesh well in basics but when we hit masters we became great friends! She might even drive the astro van to the airport so all my friends can go! She is so funny and shes got the cutes fashion. Shell be a great mormon mom one day! ;)

...Sad to be leaveing, happy to be gettin to Illinois. Happy to come back too! I'm goin to ask for everyones prayers now because I'm really nervous about the events of the next 2 months. I really need my job to pull through and I really need to have a good time at home. THANKS LOVES TO ALL!

The Busy little bee and her hive,

2009-04-24T09:14:00.000-07:00

Great news, MY MOM WAS JUST HERE! It gets better....

Monday I recived a text from my sister in law. She had just one question. Was I awake?..my responce..yes...then she called....JUST one more question..How far away do you live from the University mall...my responce.. 5 min. HERS WELL BE THERE IN 5! Jessica and Brady came all the way to Utah to surpise me for my graduation! I WAS SO EXCITED! It was a total surpise! I thought something was up once because my dad kept saying...do you know everyone who is coming..so I thought he or my best friend was coming or something...he really didnt mean them though. He wasnt sure if I knew my sister was coming! That was so funny!

They all just left. Ill post more later!

The Real World,

2009-04-20T12:34:00.000-07:00

Things are about to get real crazy here in P-Town. I leave on the 29th, not for good anymore. I will be back by the end of June. I am going to be starting a teaching postion at my school, FOR MAKEUP! Isnt that so great! I'm really excited to get that started. My teacher offered me the job about a week ago. It changes everything...For starters I have to come back and find another job. I cant do just the one job because it isnt very high paying so I will be looking right away for another job. When August rolls around I will be moving into a new apartment and it is with Tiphani. Here lies the problem. I have a dog, no dogs aloud. Any Ideas? I'm really freakin out! there is no way I can give her away. My only hope right now is that my new roommates wont mind having a illgal dog around. Look at my little baby girl I love her. She is so cute and she is so loving. I cant give her away but I am in dyier need of a pretty long time babysitter. I would totally pay for food and things that she needed like she were mine but not living with me. I love her so much she is so cute! what do I do people...what the heck do I do?!?!

The Birthday...

2009-04-16T06:42:00.000-07:00

50 comes but once a lifetime and for one special guy it came today. Happy birthday to my little old papa! You are always so proud of your kids, well today we are proud of you. You done good daddy, real good! No, your not really older then father time...but your creepin up there! ;) what a guy! Love you so so so much!

The Face,

2009-04-13T09:08:00.000-07:00

Have I ever mentioned how great of a family I have? well If I haven't my Sisters blog should do it for me. You see, It is no surprise that I love making funny faces but there is one face that trumps over everything...and I recently have been making everyone do it...no I was not aware of my family's help towards my efforts. But, I sure am glad to have them on my side for this one!

JESS if you want to do this..you aaron and brady can go ahead and give it a try! dang, we should have dont this for our family pictures..were all pretty good!
...Do you remember when my computer crashed and took everything with it? I do. I'm missing some amazing pictures and I'm really sorry you guys don't get to see them.

The so 2000 'n late,

2009-04-07T07:33:00.000-07:00

I've truly been slackin and for that I am sorry. I've been so busy. You see when I am about to leave a place I try and do as much as I can. Remember when I was moving away from home. I spent pretty much the whole month of july trying to get in as much time with my family and friends as I could. That flowed into August and now I am do it here in Utah. Tryin to close a chapture in your favorite book is very hard, you want to keep reading, thats where I am.

~This is John, Garrets old Comp. from his mission.

~Here are the lovers together..I mean boys!

~Tiph and I took are good friend Sieara out for her

~The other night our ward had a dress up party...we were the only ones dressed up.

~Open wide Garrett!...dont worry were friends!

p.s. he informed my he would not ever say yummy. haha

~These are my DR Girls. They are the best!

The Countdown,

2009-03-23T11:35:00.000-07:00

about 42ish days till I go home.

The Remember when blues,

2009-03-20T12:06:00.000-07:00

I left home, to live my dreams in P-Town.

I had my first day of school.

I moved to a new apartment...again.

I actually lived in a happy home!

I went/help with the Tyson's wedding!

I went to Sunday morning conference...with the prophet!

I met Garrett, the sane one.

I was called to enrichment.

I enjoyed my first snow fall.

I had a great person come visit.

I hiked the Y and took the long way.

I fell even more inlove with coldplay

I got my first live Christmas tree.

I had yet another brother return with honor.

I came home to a broken car.

I met Donny Osmond..and had brown hair.

I drove 12 hours by myself to see this little guy!

I went skiing for the first time!

I became a raper, look for me on itunes in April!

...I know I'm not done yet. I know there is still more to this story. But, I cant help but remember how excited I was to come out here and how close I am to being done and going home. I'm so excited to be home and get a job and be with my family. I just cant believe how time flys. man..good times for sure. I'll never forget any of it, theres my first time at spoone me, cafe rio and my first walk to school. now those things just seem normal. I remember thinking will this ever be normal? will I ever drive around and not want to break down in tears? now I've driving all around Utah, snow and all, even drivin to Arizona. I've riden on an air plane..by myself. I've had a rental car which has gotten a boot which has caused me 50 dollars which made me relies the importants of saving money. It was so scary to do this by myself...many phone calls were made and even more tears shed but I've gotten through it and like I said I relies its not over. I'm so happy for the little time I have left in Utah, the happiest state in the U.S., just ask yahoo.

The RAP star,

2009-03-13T18:36:00.000-07:00

The Bestie,

2009-03-11T10:36:00.000-07:00

My best friend Aly knows all about me. If I had a secret she would know it, If I were upset she would make me feel better and if I were hungry she would pig out with me :)

7th grade rolled around and My best friend then, Melissa, wanted to get a cat. Therefor so did I and she knew this girl that was giving away kittens. So, one afternoon my sister and I went over to aly's and picked up my devil of a kitten. Then on I always recognized her and when I saw her in the hall I would say heyyy you gave me my cat! Our 8th grade class got split into different schools so I didnt see aly again till freshmen year. She was in my science class. She was so cute and always so happy! I got my first ticket on the way home from her birthday party. We were friends ever since. The picture above is from our sophomore year homecoming. I have more pictures of us at my house but these are all I have on my laptop.

Thanks larlar for tagging me! I liked this one!

The Busy girl,

2009-03-09T21:18:00.001-07:00

Recently I went skiing for the first time ever! It was purely amazing! My friend from back home invited me to come on his boys outing skiing. His dad was my partner, sadly the second run he hurt himself, were going with he was going down the diamond:)

This is the mountain that we skied and boarded.

To get to the diamond you had to ride on this beautiful Gondola. We rode it up and we rode it down. Perfect.

I did not have any actual gear for this so I borrowed just about everything. My great friend Jack let me barrow his goggles and his coat. They were both amazing!

This is the three of us.

This is Chris and his cousin. how cute!

That is it so far. Things are going pretty good around here. Its relaxed and everyone is getting along. I'm sad that this chapter of my life is coming to an end but I'm so excited for what is to come, like you wouldn't believe.

The Sneak Peek,

2009-03-07T00:11:00.001-08:00

The lots of time on my hands...

2009-02-25T15:27:00.000-08:00

I'm bord. Like always. Here are some more pictures of the cutest kid in the world!

no blackberry for me...

2009-02-23T15:36:00.000-08:00

I GOT A NEW PHONE TODAY! it is pretty awsome! thanks to mom and dad, man people i have the best parents!

Though, I had went into verizon with my sights set on a blackberry. Sad news, Verizon made a new rule that you have to be married to get a blackberry! LAME. not a single perk as you can tell. :) hehehehe

Finding ones self.

2009-02-19T19:53:00.000-08:00

Add I previously posted, Since I have no connections holding me down...I REALLY REALLY want to travel. I just, I have no clue how to. I need money, that's one thing. Then I need the initial thing. A purpose.

Germany. My uncle is here. That means a place to stay, but I would want to travel while I was there and that's even more money so, not sounding so good.

Ireland. I would sleep in the streets to go to this place. Probably my biggest dream to go here. Need I say more?

London. My father worked here for a while. He took my mother many a times. I have always wanted to go with him. Now I'm old enough to go on my own :) p.s they have the dermal institute, can you say rock'n esthitian!?

There is something about adventure that I have always loved. As a child, and I realise I am still basically a child, I have always be fond of adventure. My friends and I would always act like we were older and wondering the world, we would ride our bikes around different neighborhoods and explore. Not leaving ours out we would dig in the un-built atop of lots, digging for anything that might be interesting. and now, I am in Utah, I do whatever I can, If an opportunity arises I take it. I feel like I have been blessed in a way to be single, for that reason I have been able to go where ever calls my name and my heart. Heres to following my heart and finding away to Europe...maybe I can hit up all 3. Hey, a girl can dream right?

Adventures

2009-02-18T16:20:00.001-08:00

Today I talked with a girl at school that has only known her husband since August. Yes, I did say husband. I thought to myself how SHORT that is. You see, as a single gal myself I don't really understand love. How do you know you love someone and most of all how do you know you can love them forever. She told me she knew right away that he was the one, though the engagement was a surprise she wasn't scared one bit. Then she kept going, In my mind this all happens so quick someone meets someone and then bam that's it love have no worries. She Then started telling me about China, she had spent some time over there teaching young ones to speak English. Not only that, she did it because she had a missionary out and she had been with him for 5 years so she never thought there was anyone else, little did she know there was. And now, she is with him for ever...and I mean EVER! There was another girl in my class awhile ago, I really looked up to her, and again being the single gal that I am I find myself fascinated with love. Obviously. She also had a very short relationship with her husban, and again I thought o how easy. But, little did I know about her story either. She had dated many other guys, been through hair school and been though a lot period. She meet her husband and life just paned out and now there having a baby. I just dont understand love. mostly I cant wait till I do. What I have been learning though is that I cant wait around for it to happen. I need to add some adventure to my life. Have fun with my friends, see the world, do things that I cant do in later years to come. I always say that Its time for me time but I've only been half doin it. I am fighting the great fight here. Finding out who I am. I want to do great things, I want to go and help children in other countrys, fundraise, have odd and end jobs, have just random fun!

V-Day presents come from mama...

2009-02-17T18:04:00.000-08:00

Don't worry! I am sooo not complaining! I'd much rather have my great presents from my mom then some cheapy junk from some lover! Lefts be serious for a minute, 9 out of 10 guys just gets the girl some flowers and chocolate, I know what I'm not missing out on hehe:) I was extreamly excited for the past week because I knew my mom had sent me a wonderful gift for Valentines day. Even more excitement came because I also got to have a great day that day too! I spent it with the wonderful Grays in Arizona for B-boys birthday! That ment though that I had to send today trackin down the UPS driver so I could get my GIFT! oo how I love when my mom sends me boxes! its like my birthday every time! She did great folks! A NORTH FACE pull over!!!!! CHOCOLATE!!!!!!! LOLLIPOPS! ANNNNDD JELLY BELLY'S!!! it was all wrapped up so cutely too! If there is one thing my mom and sister can do like a pro, its wrapping gifts! I was not so lucky in this area. DID I mention the cute little card! soooo cute! and CHAD even signed it! aw I miss my brother! Well this has been a great weekend, to bad it had to end :)

New plan, Lets get real I'll never live in london in my own little farm house out in the middle of no where so, UPDATE! I'm going to be a drifter, going from family member to friend and back... :) I know some really wicked people so, how could this not sound great! SINGLE PERK!

Driving 12+ hours alone,

2009-02-15T21:24:00.000-08:00

Wednesday night I made the last minute decision to surprise my beautiful sister in law and sky flying brother! My nephew who just so happens to be THE cutest toddler ever, seriously people I kid you not he is insanely adorable, He just celebrated his 2nd birthday! yes he is now two and he is just so smart. Here is where driving 12+ hours in a little red car by myself comes when.

Let me tell you something though. IT WAS WORTH IT MORE THEN I COULD EXPLAIN. There is nothing I love more then my family. I am just so blessed that I am able to sper of the moment see my family. I am over 20 hours away from my parents, that has been hard for me. So, when I had the opportunity to see family I knew I had to.

Friday morning I woke up at 5:45 and by 6:20 I was on the road. It is the prettiest drive, I tried to take pictures, they do the land no justice. The drive was amazing. I can say I did to much thinking while driving. I basically tired to keep my eyes on the road because I often find my eyes wondering to the beautiful scenery. It wasn't all fun and games though. Mom, Do not read pass here...I had many near death experiences. This is not a single perk I will just add that. You see, after these experiences I wanted to laugh and scream with someone and...I couldn't, I called my best friend while she was in class and had to leave a message. Later that day I got pulled over. YEP I WORKED IT THOUGH!! "well officer I slammed on my brakes because I didn't want to hit the person in front of me, o no I didn't know I was going faster then them. I'm sorry I'm coming from Provo to surprise my nephew for his birthday, yes I know my license says I'm from Illinois, I'm going for beauty school...YOU ARNT GIVING ME A TICKET BECAUSE I'M A STUDENT! thanks you so much!" there was even more convo but I wont boor you any more...and there we have a perk of being single. No one to show a point to, when there is someone else in the car they usually give you the ticket because they want to use you as an example. LAME but lucky I did not get a ticket. :) Then I arrived in Tucson, My brother called me and made me almost miss my exit...p.s mom you may begin reading again. so I took a sharp turn onto my exit and then we kept talking and I thought I was lost so I just wanted to scream AARON WHERE AM I!?!?! but, I didn't and I soon found myself at there house. It wasn't that easy but I wont even try to explain that.

You see, when you are single you get to do everything you want. I wanted to make a last minute trip to Arizona, I did it. But, this means that my only friend is my cd player because lets get real, there arnt many good stations out here on the radio and I couldn't find the good ones if I tried. You see, when you have a wing man you just have them be on radio duty but me, I was on radio duty, cop spotting and mile watching all by myself. But, It also means, Feeding one person, not stopping all the time for potty breaks and no one annoyingly snoring! :) Now, I must go to sleep. Though I don't want to I need to sleep so I wont when I drive, I'm the only one that will be driving.

Big Sis,

2009-02-10T23:52:00.000-08:00

I feel i need to humble myself to everone, please know im not going crazy(I think). I am so blessed! I have great roommates that help me for the future. I have found out while in utah that I am a great person and deserve someone as great :), still waiting...hehe just kidding. I have a great family too, I can truly tell the world my best friends are my mom and my sister! I wouldnt change anything about our relationships. I only hope they stay this strong forever. Also, I got me a good religion. full of truth and happiness and i know when i follow it I will be blessed, hence all my blessings :). I'm also excited in a while to be back in the ville, much need bffe time with my best friend aly is needed and will be had! and my little baby lilly who i find myself dreaming about!! o i miss her! i ofter imagin her getting into my food if i set it down...darn the cute little fluffy dog! Then i do get sad a little because no one is there to tell no too, no on is getting into my food, barking at the door, or even climbing in my lap! Those are the times i truly miss. so now with 2 1/2 months left, I decided I am ready to go home. I have done all i can in utah for now. yes people for now. If the chace comes where i can come back I will take it. But for now my life is in the lords hands and I may only know where i need to be untill may, But thats my life I love it. It is how its always been.Im not a planer, I am a see it, want it , do it kinda girl. SO LIFE! BRING IT ON!

...p.s to my big sis. i do notice the gramical errors..I DONT CARE :) love you.

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY

2009-02-10T20:08:00.000-08:00

I'm so happy laaaa t daaa!!!

717 done.

2009-02-06T09:29:00.000-08:00

And I'm so truely blessed.

hatein to cover up donny :(

2009-02-04T07:21:00.000-08:00

But, I am up at 8:20 eating breakfest, needing to get ready but still checkin the internet! haha. Today I found some stuff on yahoo I'm really excited about!!! COUPONS! as a poo' college kid I think its about time i get my head on straight and start useing coupons. They even have some for the stuff that I buy. I'm going to try and look in newspapers too! yep I'm a real women now! ;)

Also, last night while I was having a very important dicussion with one of my roommates, another roommate came to the door banging! see, we have beeen haveing a litle problem with our shower for about a week now and it go worse! the water was gusshing!! so we ran around like chickens with there heads cut off trying to find some help. We inlisted our buddy jack over to try and fix it. he couldnt fix it so he just shut the water off. THANK YOU JACK! but, then I relised i hadnt showered that day...and I wouldnt be able to the next day either so I had to go so someone elses aparment and shower....so now as I eat my Kashi GOLean Crunch or little crestwood fixit guy friend is in the bathroom fixin it up for me! yep isnt that wonderful!

I <3 Being Mormon

2009-02-02T13:07:00.000-08:00

Something told me this morning as I was running out the door to grab my camra. GOOD THING I DID!! I met donny osmond today! We went and waxed at a highschool this morning, as you can see I am finishing that boys pits! So funny! I wish my high school did cool stuff like this! but really people DONNY OSMOND! his son was so cute! looked just like him in a 16 year olds body!I was freakin out just like I always do for anyone remotely famous! haha The boy I was waxing was like I go to church with them....BROTHER OSMOND! I WAS LIKE SHUT UP!!! haha it was soo funny! ooo how I miss high school!

so tired

2009-01-29T23:05:00.001-08:00

I am just soo tired yet I'm up at 12:06, ready for bed yes but just havent gone. Today was my teachers last day at school. so sad she will be missed! just thought I'd put up some pictures.

This is lady. I love her. I did not do this to my baby. wasnt even in the state!

My teachers last day, that is tara with a masuqe on her lips. i about died and chased her around the school to get this darn picture and its sooo funny!

my boyfriend, flash fox. it was love i swear!

Just missin my girls from back home. I had such a great young womens...they made me this at our last sleepover, i sleep with it right now! :)

Mondays are...

2009-01-25T21:36:00.000-08:00

...always a new beginning for me. I meet my new "trainer" tomorrow. I thought I would like it but I just, I get so discoraged and so I'm not really looking forward to this. I really want to get in shape but I keep giving up and so I get disapointed and so yep thats my sob story. O dear, some people are just weird, can I just say. Well, I'm pretty random I know! but geeze I need to shape up I know I know. AAHHH

I'm backkkk

2009-01-11T16:10:00.000-08:00

Well I've been back for about a week now. Im reved up to get this year started with a bang! Im working really hard to get a really good grade on my final for basics. I'm also working really hard to get in control of me! I am going to start some really good habits and stick to them. Its time for more me time, scripture time, healthy learning time and studying time. Im excited! I'm even cooking chicken right now! go me right! We'll that is it. time to check the chicken! loooveesss you all! welcome to a great 2009!

Reality shows..guilty pleasures

2009-01-08T08:36:00.000-08:00

Princess Abbie, she is the cutest girl i know and the best singer. i incorage everyone to look at her mothers blog and listen to that little girl sing her lungs out! she is so funny! i love her! seriously...go look.. click on princess abbie to check it out!

Real world Brooklyn has officaly began and I love it!
Let me just tell you, I have always loved real world but this year is great! They are all so funny! the iraq vet, ryan is a stud! he is so funny, I love when people do lots of facial movements and he is the king! and him and chets little bromance kills me! they just do the funniest stuff! JD is cute, to bad hes gay. and as for the others, they are just there to have for chet and ryan to make fun of...I LOVE IT! its great and I cant wait till next wensday!

2 years down, now what?

2009-01-02T19:12:00.000-08:00

..feels good to be back huh chad! aw i have a cool big brother!

3 days!

2008-12-30T09:38:00.001-08:00

Elder Chad T. Gray will be home with us in 3 days. WEIRD! I cant wait to have my brother back!

THERE HERE THERE HERE!

2008-12-21T15:57:00.000-08:00

...well not yet.

JESSICA IS COMING JESSICA IS COMMMING! AND SHES BRING AARON TOO!! aarons my biiiggg brother

...i guess i have to mention their kid...brady..O I CANT DO IT!! sorry jessica! we are really really excited for you to come but omgsh!! THAT KID!! he is the cutest kid you have ever seen! im so excited to see my little nephew! BRADY ooo you are sooooooo cute! haha so ill stope freaking out now, im sure you can all tell i love my little guy! theyll be here in about 2 hours :) cant wait

MOMMIE!!!

2008-12-18T11:38:00.000-08:00

Today is my mommies birthday!! yayay i love her so much! shes 50...WOW! shes made it a lonnng way hahaha. I think ill keep her for a lot longer though!!! aww shes a great mom! but i missed her birthday and im sad!

Family,

2008-12-16T16:33:00.000-08:00

O my family. they are truly a great bunch. I leave for home on Saturday, for three whole weeks. It will be a very busy three weeks, i can tell you that right now. My brother will be coming home from his mission. It will be really great to have everyone home. Aw, I cant wait to see little brady boy. And, I expcially cant wait to see my big sister! She is the strongest person I know and I really look up to her. She is so pretty, and always well put together. She is the person I always cry to, she always knows just what to say to make me feel better. I wish I could be just like her like that. I never know what to say to people when they cry to me. On sunday our bishop explained to us what should be on our real christmas lists. He is a very smart man. But, I have my own proper christmas list not to unlike his.

1. Happy times with my family

2. Time to study the scriptures with my familys(here and there)

3. A true understanding of the meaning of things.

Theres my weepy blog for tonight. I know that god does things for a reason and all will be well. :)

so, ive been pretty busy

2008-12-06T16:35:00.000-08:00

We got our first chrismas tree together, my roomies and I. ITS REAL! I love it.

They even sold "lilE size" christmas tree, as you can see I loved it!

I could have sworn we were in tornado ally! but nope we were still in provo, the wind was crazy.

Thanks to my most FAVORITE parents ever, i got to go home for Thanksgiving!

This is me and my girls loooveeee them!! we went ice skating at forest park! it was so much fun! kelsey and i were pros by this time..but aly and callie were soo to show us up..well me atleast, i think ice skating is in kelseys blood!

The night befor i left steven and i went to see cold play. our seats were awsome! we had so much fun and it was great to hang out with a friend from home! gosh i love that kid!...we dated, in like 5th grade uhh lovers!

awhile ago was rachels b-day. we got her a beautiful dress! aw she was so cute!

sweet im on my pod!

2008-11-27T19:33:00.000-08:00

The Ville,

2008-11-22T11:28:00.000-08:00

Here I come!

visitor

2008-11-13T11:07:00.000-08:00

So, I dont know if I have mentioned but I have an amazing family. Direct and indirect. You see, my cousin (aka my moms best friends daughter) came to visit me. She lives in good old sailisbury, maryland. Thats fight folks she flew from across the US just to see me! Her fav. cousin! haha. it took her and me and long time to get here but we are! haha. see she always loved my sister more...duhh but now she and I are the best of friends! just like are moms. Um.. and we are both pretty much replicas of our mothers.

Abigale wulff,
lil pam

Erica Gray
lil teresa

I took it apone ourself to have us make sunday dinner. abby made awsome pasta and I made oatmeal cookies. THEY ROCKED! they are my fav. forsure

That night, while bri napped, we tried to hike to skwapeek. didnt work so good. we never made it to the very top. so sad!

Then, we came home to a very awake bir. she thought it would be a good idea to hike the Y. well Y not we thought.

This is us at the top, ye the top right hand side of the Y. we took the long way. bout killed us, but we did make it!

We did have to take some breaks, I mean we had walked alot that day.

on our way up we found this awsome rock. Well, the 3 musketeers decided that we needed pics!

This is us at the end of it all. wiped out

so, we came home and had some cider...haha that stuff is so good!

The next day I had to take her to spoone me, its my home away from home peeps!

..we added to the spoone collection!

o, i forgot to tell you. we nerfed it up that night too, the night we walked..everywhere

she is so daring!

The night abby left we all went out to dinner.

Today is rachels birthday so, abby thought we could just celebrate it early. she thought to tell the people it was rachels b-day. how sweet!...we had to have our turn..DUHH

Shes, crazy. but i love her!

Well, we didnt want to night to end so we thought we'd show abby how mormons get down! thats right people, energy drinks! also we didnt want to fall asleep. haha abby andi were on the hats team! we killed them!

so, we made our beds in the living room. didnt sleep. at all.

The next morning we went to mimi's cafe for breakfast. that was 7 a.m.

Then, i had to go to class for 4 hours. abby came and got a facial. then we left for the airport. sad day! we had arbys, in honor of our parents.

and then it was over. the most fun in 4 days i have ever had!

Thanks abby, for everything! almost winning a wii was a blast, shooting nerfs, staying up all night, trying to deoterize my egged room, buying shoes, spending lots of money, eating out....alllll the time, sneaking around walmart..all 97 times we went, hikeing everything, hats hats hats, chips and cheese, no bra, THATS IGNORANT, what?, church clothes, and sunday dinner, all memories ill never forget!..uh im over it

...well now i have to go, I think ill be sick if i dont get away from the eggs! ahh

2008-11-06T22:20:00.000-08:00

so, i have a food war goin going on with my neighbor, here is my window...hahhaha its much worse now, and the 3rd level boys got in on it last night.

the boys window, he has it all wraped up. haha a cross isnt going to even help him!

on my way to school...it snowed the other day. i wish it would just snow and be done with it, although it has been so cold here! ahh

this is outside my window, right befor i went to school.

i go home pretttttty sooon

2008-11-01T17:16:00.000-07:00

Fun day at school. We went out for breakfast and carved pumpkins. this is my pumpkin. shes got tattoos...shes pretty much a rock star!

This is all the girls, basics and masters. were all friends!

These are my nails. i did ithem! thats boo, candy, bat, skull,kitty

ghost, spider, moon cloud, witch hat, and candy corn.

arnt those the cutest glasses!

We had a murder mystery for inrichment. IT WAS SO MUCH FUN! i looked the most guilty but it wasnt me!

Thats me and my man! haha he was my husban!

Thats all of the charcheters

he done it!! he jurnalist! o no!

School days

2008-10-21T23:41:00.000-07:00

So, Home work is what I do alot of these days. Thats fine. I want to know all I can about this stuff. But dosnt mean its all clicking. But I think im like one of the best in the class. Dosnt mean I'm great, just means I give a great pedi and facial! tomorow is cleaning day. BORING! I'm just glad to have chp. 8 done with. I got a 73 on my test. I know horribul, but it was the best in the class if that says anything...sorry mom! I tried, I know I could have tried harder but I am working hard! I really want to get a job at a resort over the summer I think so I need to be really good so that they'll hire me even if I'm a newbie!

So, heres me writing my 5 page paper on ch. 8. We have to do this when we dont get at least an 80 on our tests. 6 points people! gosh gosh gosh!

and yes it is 2 a.m. awww the life of a college kid! FREEDOM! BAHHAHAHA and yes I use cheap Suave lotion. Its Coca Butter, I hate it but I cant waste it..It cost like 7 bucks! :( me no likey poor poor life.