BIG TEST!

I took my test on monday! PASSED!

yay new pictures!

Last night we want to my fabulous friend Emily's pumpkin carving party! She is so much fun and her apartment was so adorable! I wish I lived with her! she knows that funniest people!! it was blast and my new roomie Kelsey and I made the cutest jack ever!

Lost.

I'm feeling a little lost right now. Seriously contemplating moving back home. I love everything about my life right now, so why is it so hard? Why am I in Utah? I have no reason. I feel like the biggest waste of time right now. But, I just passed my written test and I'm about to start a really great new job. Yet, something is pulling me back to home. Is it selfish of me to live out here? I'm not going to school anymore and I am not here for anyone. I am not self sufficient, though I really wish I was. Maybe a change is in the near future.


pray, all I can do is pray.

Dear Mommy,

Will you ever know how much you help me? Will you ever understand how sorry I am for being the biggest brat ever. Will you ever know just how much I love you? Will I ever be able to repay you for all the blessings you've given me? Will I have be able to say thank you enough for helping me? Will you ever know how much I love you, just as much as I love my daddy? Will you ever know how much I appreciate the phone calls? Will you ever see how grateful I am to look like you? Will you ever know how proud I am to be half Gordy? Will you ever know how thankful I am you raised me in the church? Will you ever know how happy I am that YOU got baptised? Will you ever know how thankful I am that we say "I love you" at the end of our conversations no matter how cranky I am? Will you ever know just how much I want to be like you when I'm a mom? Will you ever know how thankful I am that you made me workout? Will you ever know how grateful I am for all the extras you give me? Will you ever know how happy I am when I get your packages in the mail? Will you ever understand just how much I NEVER want to live away from you again? Will you ever know how much I love your mom? Will you ever know how happy I am that I am a re rejoyce? Will you ever know how thankful I am that I am your mothers granddaughter therefor givin the strength to do ANYTHING?

Mommy I am so glad your mine.

Crocodile tears...

I am sitting here crying, crying like I haven't done in a really long time. I have been hearing storeys about dads lately that have just been taring my heart apart....I'm sorry to share them with you but I just need to get them out there and ask all of you to pray for them...

First story,
This Thursday we have enrichment so I went around to ask girls to bring treats. One girl told me she wouldn't be there on Thursday and then proceed to tell me why...Her father had just suffered a heart attack and it was so bad that they couldn't help him in Wyoming so he was brought to Salt Lake. Well Being as I am in Relief Society now my Prisent and I who was with me at the time decided we were going to take her dinner to take to her mom. Well, today I got a call my Jamie the president and she explained to me a little more about what was going on...things had changed. There was some sort of complication and they could no longer do the surgery on Thursday...they sent her father back to Wyoming. They rescheduled the surgery for next Thursday but, they also do not expect him to live that long... I can not even imagine being giving an expiration date on my dad. I can not imagine telling someone that I had been told my daddy wouldn't make it... The girl who's father it is said that she feels comfort and knows that it is the lords plan..but I, I feel horrible. I just love my daddy and couldn't...I'm not finishing that sentence. Please pray for her.


2nd Story,
Last night while driving to instatue we were talking about our RP. Well, I told my friends how mine was in my dads "special things" drawer and when I went to look for it I got caught up in post cards and letters my daddy's dad had sent to him...My dad lost his dad when he was really young. I think about 15. Reading those letters broke my heart. He would send 10 dollars so my dad could have his brother drive him up to see him, he'd make him have his brother promise to take him... It made me so sad that my dad couldn't just call up his daddy when ever he wanted...he had to wait for letters. I'm so glad that I can be with my family forever and one day Ill get to meet my dads dad.

3rd story,
My poor sweet little Brady and Jessica. I read my sister inlaws blog this morning and CRIED! Aaron is away just at training but as she points out soon enough he'll be back in Afghanistan. She talks about how Brady misses his daddy, my brother, and how when he is sad and her too they can just give him and call...for now. I love Jessica and Brady so much and I don't know how Jessica does it! Sending her man off all the time! She is such a strong wife and mother. I only hope I can be like her when I am married. Although I hope my husband doesn't have to leave all the time. Thank you Jess for putting up with my brother love for his country.

4th story,
On yahoo, my fav. place to get info, I read about this little 4 year old girl who didn't want to let go of her daddy. I hope I can tell the story as well as yahoo did... So, The little 4 year old girl was seeing her father off to Iraq with the rest of her family but she really really didn't want him to go...she couldn't let him go. She stood by him as him and his fellow Army men lined up. No one had the heart to move her or even ask her to move. So, they left her there with her father...her mom caught the picture...it broke my heart. She was later interviewed and said that she still really misses her daddy....break. my. heart. again. Pray for her and her family.

...How could that picture not break your heart? I love my dad so much...and I just played a little game of phone tag with him...and am waiting for his 2nd call back...please be swift father.

p.s you can click on the links to read the whole storys but get a tissue ready. you WILL cry.

Conference '09

CLICK HERE!

...Why you ask? Well Let me tell you a little something. Today I got to go to the 179 semi-annual General Conference for the Church of Jesus Christ of latter-day saints. The Click here is the talks. I HIGHLY recomend you watch this. It will change your life. I highly recomend Elder Hollands talk, it was LEGIT. The guy did not beat around the bush. My gosh I just loved this weekend. I feel so blessed to get revelation in these days. I am so blessed to belong to a church that only exsists to make me a better person.

Cougar for a Second time!

Really do I need to say more? my friends rock! they get me into all the games!

2nd job!

I am so excited! on the 13th I take my state board test and after that I will be starting at a salon/spa called pure beauty! I am so excited!! I really needed this job and I have been so blessed by getting it. I dont know why they liked me so much but they did and called me last week. We had an interview and I got the call today! I'm so so so excited!